05.04.2026: Type?
AlaLie are hyungs. Big Brothers. How did I arrive at this conclusion? Recently I have been enjoying contents from Korean vtuber group called "Sukoshism". Sukoshism has two members that are older in age compared to the rest of the group, so they are called with "Big Brother" honorific according to Korean (honestly, most of Asian) custom. Nino Sunday is one of the hyung, but he's loud as hell. He's the leader, it's natural that he assumes caretaker position. However, since I also read gsgw and liked Agent Choi, Nino sounds like how I imagine how Agent Choi's voice would be like all this time. So, it seems like I have a preference for cheerful Big Brother figure?
How this conclusion leads to AlaLie? Hard to explain but, imagine having them as siblings. Wouldn't they be the reliable ones, either advancing earlier due to the sense of providing his closest ones (Al) or kinda lost midway, yet still being someone to call for encouragement or support (Charlie)? Tag-team of Big Brothers, I really like the idea of they stand on equal footing instead of, say, older x younger dynamic.
Worth to mention, seems they have came in peace with their own masculinity. It's not like "Al is more masculine than Charlie" or vice versa, it simply manifests differently. No need to compete, they can exist side-by-side.
01.04.2024: Imaginary Friend?
I discussed with my boyfriend, about whether I should continue pursuing AlaLie or not. He said, from writing perspective, better to start anew in order to gain fresh writing perspective. I may always trash-talk them, but whenever someone suggests me to put them aside, I don't want to do that. Whether it is because of stubbornness or wanting to stay at comfort zone forever, I'm not sure.
I told boyfie, making new characters would prolong daydreaming issues, instead of solving it. I take "too much spending time on fantasy lala land" perspective in this conversation, not the usual CREATIVE GRINDSET HOW TO APPEAL TO EVERYONE AND SHOT TO 100K FOLLOWERS scheme which most people use to argue with me.
Furthermore, with pleading emoji, I confessed "they're my imaginary parent" to him. The most honest, raw, no-bullshit acknowledgement about them. I found an article about imaginary friend from 2015, I can truly relate to the experience.. down to panic attack moment.
They used to be my companion during ehm The Worldwide Lockdown Era, especially because around that time everyone in my household tend to be mentally unstable. It's a struggle between attachment and the "shoulds" in my head, whispering about how childish it is to keep holding onto them.. also, strange. Since I can't really post about AlaLie with my real name attached, a shame. I have paranoia of what people would think if they discover my hyperfixation.
However, there's sense of romanticizing life when I wear my OC's rose-tinted glass. My chest flutter as they utter sweet assurances, comfort albeit long-term fight that has been concluded. The question of "should I quit" remains unanswered, but the fact they're always suspended on the air makes them always available to pick up back.
01.04.2024: Moving From Index
Almost a month since I built this website. Now I'm looking at it, AlaLie sketches from the index page seems out of place, no? So I move it here, preserving the content. Well, I'm gonna yap about OCs anyway (not sure if I should put this page here or at /sub-blog). Dedicated section, yay.
By @feik-art on Discord
04.03.2026: I joined art event server called "March Cafe"! There
people can purchase commission with server currency "coins".
By @raulrawwr on Discord
01.03.2026: Apparently Raul (fellow Providence server member) had been
enticed by this doomed parent-like duo! Raul is actively simping other
people's OC, I see.